Becoming Influenze-d

Yuck, I hate the flu.

I could feel that tickle in my throat on Monday and knew something was coming. I thought it would just be a cold, but by Tuesday night when my fever got to almost 40 degrees Celsius, I started suspecting the flu. I finally dragged myself to the doctor on Thursday to have it confirmed. I almost wish I hadn’t, since someone who has had the flu anytime in the past few weeks is somewhat of a pariah in Japan.

Being stuck in bed or on the couch for three days at least gives me some perspective. Here are things I learned:

1. I easily get addicted to a TV series.

2. I have a wonderful husband who did his best to take care of the house and kids.

3. Despite his best efforts, he needs me. 🙂

4. Even though I am very much an introvert, I can only go so long without getting out of the house. So long=3 days.

5. I still need my mom to tell me when to go to the doctor.

6. Being sick doesn’t cause my kids to need me any less, or make my desire to be their mama any less.

Thankfully I feel almost back to normal now. If we were in the States I would have gone to church today, but we’re not so I didn’t. Looking forward to the rest of this week getting back to our version of ‘normal’ though!

Hope the flu doesn’t find you!

Love,

Hannah

Becoming ‘un-Desperate’

I recently finished the book ‘Desperate: Hope for Moms Who Need to Breathe’. I can honestly say God has used it to change my life and my outlook on life.

Here’s the link to it on Amazon. I read it on Kindle: Buy Desperate on Amazon

I had a hard winter. In a future post I’ll write more about the whys of that, but it culminated with me crying in our bathroom for an hour and deciding I needed to go to the doctor because I just didn’t feel right or like myself. I was having more bad days than good, and even the good ones weren’t great. I was always tired. I was starting to resent my kids. I was desperate.

The doctor told me I probably had mild postpartum depression, which made sense considering Malachi’s age. If it got worse, he said, come back for medication. I decided that it wouldn’t get worse.

One of my best friends came for ten days soon after that. And then we went on a two week trip to Taiwan where I was surrounded by friends and people I could honestly talk to. And then the book Desperate, which I had pre-ordered, was finally delivered to my Kindle.

I cried through the introduction and first chapter. I felt like it was directly speaking to me.

I’m not going to write a book review, because you can find those easily elsewhere. I just wanted to share that if you’re a mama and feeling or have ever felt desperate, this book is for you. It’s not another parenting book or method for raising kids, keeping house, or living ‘spiritually’. It’s just an encouragement from moms to moms to live life fully, the way that God made you to, in your own unique style.

God used the authors of Desperate to show me that motherhood is extremely important and that there are very few other things in life that I will do that are more important. That I need fellowship with other moms, including those who have already been through the ‘desperate times’. That I could find joy in being a mommy, even in the hard times. That I could take time for myself and not feel guilty. That making my home a place my kids want to be and my husband and I are comfortable in is a worthwhile endeavor. And so much more.

If you decide to read it or have already, let me know your thoughts! I hope it’s as good for your soul as it has been for mine.

Love,

Hannah 🙂